Hah! Not really.
I am indeed being a rebel by playing hooky today though. Of course this is nothing new for me, but lately I’ve been quite responsible, and this morning as I was trying to fall asleep (at 5 am), I cringed at the thought that I had to work (at the coffee shop), go to two classes, get a project done for my other job, and somehow manage to bake a treat for Mason and obviously sex myself up for the festivities tonight. It was simply too awful for me to bear the fact that my effort was going to be a waste, because crazy tiredness (from extreme lack of sleep), and the brain burn resulting from contributing to society all day would have prevented from enjoying myself at the party, thereby killing my buzz. Quite literally.
So I’m being naughty, and I couldn’t be happier about it! It reminds me of the good old days…my stoned slacker days, as I fondly call them.
I blew off EVERYTHING, and even lied about it–this is something I have never done before, because for all of my neglect of responsibility, I am nothing if not honest. Through all of college, through all of life, I have made it a point not to make excuses for my actions, especially bogus excuses. However, it suddenly came to me not all that long ago that part of life in our society is bs-ing. As I believe I have said before, my main purpose in life is keeping it real, so I had some trouble accepting this. Even when I was always getting in trouble for not doing shit and my friends were claiming their grandmothers had died, I kept my mouth shut–but therein lies the problem. It may sound silly that I really didn’t figure this out until recently, but apparently not saying anything gives the impression that you just don’t give a fuck. People expect you to make excuses. I’m not even going to get into how stupid this is, but I’m happy to say that I don’t feel bad at all about lying to my bosses or prof today, because I think in the end it’s less rude than not saying anything and I’m probably doing good in terms of their egos by making them think their nonsense is important to me.
(Side note: I can seriously rationalise anything. It kind of freaks me out.)
Well I shall continue this later as I have to go prepare the rainbow cake (hooray! I am pumped!!) and get sexed up for the soiree this evening!
Hope everyone else is having an amazing day also!! :) :)